Tuesday, September 05, 2006 

Now its time to say good bye....

Dear bloggers,

I started this blogg over a year ago cause I felt like I had some things to get off my chest and I did that. Now I feel like I need to move on to the next chapter of my life.

I want to thank all the the people who read my blogg and commented, I appreciate everyone’s advise. I also want to thank the Bloggers that I have had the pleasure of meeting. Golden, Organized noise and Will (just to name a few) you guys are great and I consider all of you friends.

I’ll be checking up on all of you from time to time to see what’s up. Take care

Love Ya

Thursday, August 24, 2006 

Sex on the brain… yeah I know big surprise

So I was sitting around thinking about some the things that I haven’t done sexually that I would like to try, like sex in a public place for example and elevator Ala Fatal Attraction, when it dawned on me, how would people I know view me if they new the things that went on in my bedroom. For example you find out that your friend was in a threesome, does that change how you see that person now? I mean Im sure by freaky standards Im pretty tame but what if I wasn’t. Will people now look at me differently? And really what is the fasination with the sex lives of others?

Monday, August 21, 2006 

One-sided love

Loving someone that doesn't love you is like reaching for a star, you know you'll never reach it, but you just got to keep trying
- Unknown

I was reading 1inthesame’s last post and then I came across this quote. To me it was too much of a coincidence so I thought I’d write about my own one-sided love.

He was everything I wanted in a man. Spontaneous, Romantic, ambitious etc. With one fatal flaw… he wasn’t in love with me. Now, notice I said in-love, cause I know that he had love for me but being in love with someone and loving them is different.

Now, I thought I was doing everything as a girlfriend I was supposed to. I was sweet, supportive, spontaneous and loving. I thought we were perfect together but for reasons that I am still unsure of to this day things change. I could tell in his eyes that the “love” was gone and even though he kept telling me the contrary I knew what I felt in my heart.

Now this didn’t stop me from still wanting to be with him on the contrary it made me want him more. I guess it’s the “wanting what you can’t have” scenario. God, did I try and try with him but sadly my love wasn’t enough. That experience left a sort of whole in my heart to this day and although I found the love I was looking for in someone else I still wonder why he couldn’t love me.

Ever love someone you know didn’t love you?

Thursday, August 17, 2006 

Why the Drama?

So Last night I had to go through a touch of drama Here is the story,

My sister went left her son with me cause she was going on a trip today. No problems there but last night a get a phone call from his father asking to speak with him, still no problem (side note: My nephew didn’t want to speak with him but I thought he should just so that his father knew he was ok) After about 10min I hear my nephew say “ Its 8:30 and I’m in my PJ’s I’m not going down now” So to that I tell him “ your not going down now”. So apparently Psycho ( as he will be known for the rest of this post) tells him to get dress and come down, to this my nephew tells him “my aunt said I can’t go so im not going”. Now I decided to nip this in the bud so I get on the phone

Me: he’s not going down now

Psycho: What the fuck you mean he’s not coming down? tell him I said to get dress

Side note: now I was trying to be nice, stay neutral but this ass was messing with the wrong one.

Me: What part didn’t you FUCKING understand? The he’s not or going down? Do you need me to say the shit is Spanish?

So now where going back and forth with some severe choice words till I got fed up and hung up on him. Do you believe this MF came to my House?!!! Oh Hell NO!!! Now I wanted to just call the cops and be done with it but my husband was having none of that.

Husband: What the fuck is your problem?

Psycho: I want my son, ya’ll cant keep him Im his father!

Husband : He aint going not where so your wasting your fucking time ( followed by a shuv) Get the fuck away from my door!

So Psycho scurried his as off. To make sure that he didn’t return I let him know that I was calling the cops. Ok can I just tell you the cops showed up at my house an 1/1/2 later! So much for the NYPD!!!!

So now I have to keep my nephew indoors for the next few days so that Psycho doesn’t tryto snatch him off the streets!

Why must people bring drama to my door???

Monday, August 14, 2006 

A party, the ex-wife and MIKE oh my!

So this weekend was my husband's god-daughter's graduation/off to college party. If you’ve read my blog you know that although there is no beef between me and the ex-wife there is very little conversation either. Well this pass weekend to my surprise she and I actually had several conversations….. I was taken aback a bit but it was cool and I left feeling like it was genuine.

They hand a palm reader at the party and everyone got their palm read. I can't lie I was a little skeptical at first but this lady told me things that she could not have known unless she was living in my head. Im still a little freak out about it.

Ok can I just tell you the party was alcohol free for the most part aside from wine, sangria and MIKE's Hard LEMONADE. Ok, so Mike’s only has 5% alcohol in it so we deduced that the chances of getting twisted on Mike’s are slim. You would have to drink about 15 to get fucked up….. Not true you could get fucked up only drinking 7! Yeah I was tipsy by the 7th(I lost count after that)I realized this when I tried to push open a door clearly marked PULL. Yeah that’s when I new I had had enough of MIKE.

It was a really good party and My husband got a chance to see his god-daughter before she left for college and I got to chit-chat with the ex. Were not friends but were clearly not enemies.

So how was your weekend?

Friday, August 11, 2006 


Sorry!!!!Lots going on. My mind is to full with other stuff to write but I left you this meme.

How old do you wish you were?

23 – 24 Old enough to know better but still too young to care.

2. Where were you when 9/11 happened?
I was at work. Sadly I could see the buildings from my window. I remember everything about that day.

3. What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
I start to beat the crap out of it until it gives me my goods

4. Do you consider yourself kind?
Most of the time, yes.

5. If you had to get a tattoo, where and what would it be?
I have one, a butterfly on my stomach. I want a second one on my back, something that represents my kids

6. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Italian... I should say spanish though since mine is kind of faulty. LOL

7. Do you know your neighbors?
Not really

8. What do you consider a vacation?
Time away from the everyday, relaxing and enjoying myself.

9. Do you follow your horoscope?
Not really, but I think their interesting

10. Would you move for the person you loved?

11. Are you touchy feely?
Yeah, sometimes

12. Do you believe that opposites attract?
Yes definitely

13. Dream job?
Social worker

14. Favorite channels?
HBO, Showtime, cinemax

15. Favorite place to go on a weekend?
To a restaurant for dinner and drinks

16. Showers or bath?

17. Do you paint your nails?
I get them done at the salon

18. Do you trust people easily?
No, that’s why I have so few friends

19. What are your phobias?
Not being able to provide for my kids

20. Do you want kids?
I’d like another

21. Do you keep a handwritten journal?
No, that’s what bloggin is for

22. Where would you rather be right now?
Home Sleeping

23. What makes you feel warm and safe?
Lying in the arms of the man I love

24. Heavy or light sleep?
I’m a light sleeper… right Nicky and J?

25. Are you paranoid?
Why do I act paranoid? LOL

26. Are you impatient?

27. Who can you relate to?
Strong women

28. How do you feel about interracial couples?
No problem with interracial couples if you like it I love it!

29. Have you been burned by love?
Sadly yes

30. What's your life motto?
Live everyday as if you’re last

31. What's your main ringtone on your mobile?
Unpredictable- Jamie Foxx

32. What were you doing at midnight last night?

33. Who was your last text message from?
Raquel, this morning

34. Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
My own

35. What color shirt are you wearing?
White polo shirt

36. Most recent movie you watched?
John Tucker must die…. Hey I took my daughter

37. Name five things you have on you at all times?
Cell Phone, iPod, Bank Card, Lip Gloss and my Key’s

38. What color are your bed sheets?
black and white with a splash of red

39. How much cash do you have on you right now?

40. What is your favorite part of the chicken?
The fingers and nuggets. LOL

41. What is your favorite town/city?
South Beach, MIAMI

42. I can't wait till...
I can go HOME

43. Who got you to join Blogger?
Nicky and then she left…. Bitch!LOL

44. What did you have for dinner last night?
Rice and beans with pork chops

45. How tall are you barefoot?
5’ 5” (barely)

46. Have you ever smoked crack?
Hell NO

47. Do you own a gun?

48. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?

49. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
My Charm and Wit …. LOL

50. Do you have A.D.D?
Another Damn Diet? ...Yeah

51. What time did you wake up today?

52. Current worry?
Whether I will ever move out of New York

53. Current hate?
My mother-in-law

54. Favorite place to be?
9 west trying on shoes

55. Where would you like to travel?
Italy, The Bahamas, Spain but I don’t like to fly so this won’t ever happen

56. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
I hope out of New York City

57. Last thing you ate?
Ham, egg and cheese on toast

58. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Whatever is on the radio

59. Last person that made you laugh?
My daughter

60. Worst injury you ever had?
A dog bit me when I was six; loss some muscle in my leg… does that count.

61. Does someone have a crush on you?
I don’t know?

62. What is your favorite candy?
The chocolate bars that the Catholic school kids sell that has almonds in it…. That’s my favorite. Does anyone know the name?

63. Favorite erogenous zone?
The back of my neck

Have a great Weekend!!!

Monday, August 07, 2006 

I tried, I really did!

I just couldn't help it. Its like a car accident you don't want to look but you just have too! I sat there and I watched and even when I was mortified I still watched and I am planning to watch again.... Yes I saw the "Flavor of Love season 2". I know, I know its crazy but I couldnt pry myself from the screen... I need help